Time for some change.
I have changed in the past year. Now, it’s time for my blog to change (and grow) with me.
It’s time for breaking taboos, focusing on positivity and sharing a little more of me.
But first, I’d like to share a story with you. It’s the most personal story I’ve shared so far, but I feel like this is the right thing to do. I also think it’s important to discuss the issues I have, since not many people seem to talk about it.
I haven’t shared much personal stories with you guys the past year, because I wasn’t ready for it. I haven’t been as inspired and dedicated as I used to be. You may have noticed my not posting as much as I used to, my not being on top of my game and not as much smiling in my selfies. Here’s why.
I’ve had a rough year.
Since around March last year, I have been dealing with a pretty heavy depression. It got to a point where I didn’t really want to get out of bed anymore, and felt terrible for months.
Depression is something that completely changes your view and reality. Literally everything becomes hard to deal with. The smallest setbacks have huge impact on someone who’s depressed. It causes a paralyzing fear, personal dissatisfaction and a feeling of despair. Me personally, I felt worthless, alone, intensely sad and helpless, even though I wasn’t. It’s like there’s a negative filter over everything you see and do. It was very hard for me to work during this time. Especially because a blog is a personal thing, and it was hard to keep up when I wasn’t inspired at all and didn’t really want to take pictures. I felt really bad because my blog is something I worked hard for and I’m really thankful for all my readers and followers, and I felt like I was letting you down.
Luckily, I’m feeling much better now. I’m not entirely there yet, but I’m a lot better than I was last year and I’m much happier again. That’s all because I’ve been working really hard on myself, trying to get the old me back and dealing with my problems. This is why my focus hasn’t really been on fashion, but my focus is on happiness. Which is why I decided to make my blog even a little more personal, and write more about happiness and making life easier. It’s much easier, and more fun for me to write about something I’m focusing on right now and is really important to me. No worries, there will still be fashion and outfit posts, but also articles about life. Because I’ve learned a lot about myself and about life, and how to be happier – and I’d love to share what I’ve learned with you guys. Whether you might need it or not.
I look forward to sharing more of what’s on my mind with you, and I hope you’ll enjoy my tips and personal experience that I’m about to share here. I much value your voice, so don’t be afraid to talk in the comment section.
Love you guys!